I feel like it's just as important to bring up my past musical loves as it is to discuss my current ones. I'm not afraid to admit that at one time, not too long ago, I worshipped at the altar of Tori Amos. She was my life, my muse, and the subject of my first college essay in 2000. Looking back on it now, I realize that she is, more or less, the reason I continue to play the piano right now. There were three solid, intense years of worship I experienced in regards to Tori. At one time, I had collected around 12 or 13 of her cd's, mainly singles.
Then suddenly, around three years ago, I simply lost interest. I don't know the exact moment or even why, it just happened. And it made me kind of sad. I felt her music had helped me grow and mature emotionally so much, and she had inspired me so much, that it didn't make sense. But of course, I simply outgrew her. Scarlet's Walk was the last Tori Amos record I ever bought. I haven't bought the latest one and quite frankly, I don't plan to, though I probably would want to get a copy of it. I mainly go back to Under the Pink, Boys For Pele, and From The Choirgirl Hotel. I still find her as talented and fascinating, just from different set of ears. A lot has happened to me in the last three years, and I have a feeling that her presence in my life could make a comeback sooner or later. Hell, she's the inspiration of two of my online journals, including my current one redbaroness, and a former Diaryland journal liquidiamond. The former username comes from her song, "Not The Red Baron", and the latter comes from the song "Liquid Diamonds". I feel as if I owe her something for all she had given me.
Every once in a while, I can't help but play "Pretty Good Year", "Playboy Mommy", "Merman", or her covers of "A Case Of You" and "Famous Blue Raincoat" on the piano and sing them. Now I'm uploading the three previously mentioned records of hers onto my iTunes and it makes sense to me. I wouldn't be surprised if "Frog On My Toe" and "Northern Lad" still made me tear up. I still have a deep love in my heart for Tori somewhere, even if it's smaller than it used to be. Some of those former loves just never go away, no matter what kind of presence they have now. Tori Amos still has that effect on me, almost four years after her initial impact.
Now Playing: Tori Amos- Iieee
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I'm the same way with Relient K. I was soooo in love with them for so long and then it just stopped. I don't know what happened, I just stopped liking them. But now I still go back every now and then and reminisce about how much they meant to me. Good times!
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